#AgonyCant I'm a 22-year-old virgin and I can't bring myself to have sex 2 years ago

#AgonyCant I'm a 22-year-old virgin and I can't bring myself to have sex

agony can't

"I’m 22 and a virgin.

"I’ve done other stuff with girls and am not against the idea of having sex, I just don’t know why I haven’t.

"I’ve gotten close three or four times but just never have. All of my friends are having sex and I really want to. I've even turned down girls who I am really attracted to and regretted it after, but never got the opportunity again.

"Is there something subconsciously stopping me?"

I know it probably feels like you're the only person you know who's struggling with something like this, but trust me, you're not.

Sex is a big part of a lot of peoples lives, and when you're young, the pressure to have sex and to talk about it with your mates constantly can be very real and very scary - but feeling like an outsider and like 'The Only One' is one of the main reasons why things like this become even more and more difficult as time goes on.

People have sex in lots of different ways. Some people define 'losing it' as the first time they were penetrated or the first time they penetrated someone - and others don't.

Having sex and being intimate can mean a variety of things depending on who you're talking to, but I do understand the pressure that often comes with being part of a large friend group who are all doing it and you're the only one who seemingly isn't.

Your perceptions about sex and what it means to have it are probably going to change over time - especially seeing as this is something you're grappling with. But right now, the issue is that you want to have sex and you're not able to, so let's just focus on that.

To get a professional opinion (and to ensure you're not just relying on my own semi-informed but not-expert-thoughts on the subject,) I got in touch with sex therapist Dr Megan Fleming.

She says that usually, when a person is unable to have sex despite having had many opportunities, it's due to a physical block or barrier.

"For a woman that would be vaginismus and for a man, erectile dysfunction," she says. 

"Both conditions can be caused by psychological factors, physical/organic factors and most often a combination of both.

"Arousal is a combination of both physical and psychological stimulation. That said, the foundation of arousal is relaxation."

Megan says that when the opportunity to have sex with someone new arises, most people aren't necessarily totally relaxed. Rather, "anticipatory anxiety" and "in-the-moment performance demand" can contribute to the inability to successfully achieve penetrative sex.

She says:

"Anxiety is an immediate cause that could in and of itself make penetration impossible.

"As I sex therapist, I identify and treat immediate causes first. If in doing so, the problem isn’t resolved, we explore the deeper issues that may be present. Common deeper issues are fear of intimacy, difficulties letting go, (and) history of trauma."

I know, I know - being relaxed may seem obvious when it comes to sex, but the truth is a lot of people do struggle with anxieties around physical intimacy.

Not feeling judged and not feeling pressured is a must. Wanting to have sex is one thing, but if your body or your mind isn't letting you, then there is probably a reason why. You just need to figure out where these feelings are coming from.

There's a lot you need to consider here - and a lot of different reasons why you might be struggling with having sex - but if you don't know where to begin, speaking to a professional is absolutely your best bet.

The thought of spilling all your deepest, darkest sex-based secrets to someone who's essentially a stranger can be mildly terrifying at first, but I have it on good authority (my own) that it does help.

Therapists are not there to judge you, to tell you what to do, or to make you feel pressured in any way.

At the very least, they're able to provide you with the tools to figure out a bit more about yourself and why your brain works the way it does... and at the most, they might actually be able to help you a lot more than you realised.

 You can find out more about erectile dysfunction and vaginismus here. 

Worried about going on a first date with someone new? Got some lad onto you who won't take the hint? Are you being ghosted, breadcrumbed, or some other new form of dating trend? Just need somewhere to vent about everything that's wrong with your love life? Same, to be honest.

Don't worry though because at Her we've been there, we are still there, and we can maybe even give you some decent advice. At the end of the day, #ShiftHappens to all of us. 

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