What is gaslighting? And how do I know if it's happening to me?
You might have heard of this term before.
If not, let me explain.
Gaslighting is the term given to a form of emotional abuse most often within a relationship.
Regularly described as the one that causes the most damage due to the fact that most of the time, the victim isn't even aware it is happening.
A relationship where you constantly doubt yourself, feel second best to your partner, often stupid or where you no longer trust your own instincts can be the result of gaslighting.
This sophisticated form of emotional abuse can occur within many scenarios, many of which can impact you without even realising.
For example, if you are called crazy and over-sensitive when you're actually approaching a problem correctly. This, in turn, makes you second guess your sanity and if you are just being "crazy" and acting "like a girl".
A gaslighter will often respond to your concerns by flipping the issue and suggesting there's something wrong with you, causing the root of the conversation to change and the spotlight put on you and why you are acting a certain way.
This can cause you to loose faith in your own judgement and often back down because you are simply just confused.
"Having your reality questioned has got to be the most damaging thing out there..."
Another common issue is feeling shut out. If you feel your partner is constantly shutting you out, telling you they are not sharing a problem with you because "sure what would you know anyways?", then this is another red flag.
This happened to me personally in a previous relationship and it hurts, it makes you feel inadequate and unintelligent - it will cause you to stop bringing up issues for a fear of saying something wrong and secrets will then have an opportunity to arise and the bridge of communication to break.
Ben Michaels, PhD, a clinical psychologist in New York City spoke with Health.com on gaslighting and he said:
"Having your reality questioned has got to be the most damaging thing out there, because our reality and the way we think about the world is kind of all we have."
"If they're questioning your memory, or causing you to question your memory of certain events or narratives, that's a big red flag. It is twisting your sense of reality, and that's what's so harmful about it.”
And equally so, if you feel your achievements are being quashed, then you need to second guess why you are in this relationship.
Do you come home with exciting news, that you got a big promotion in work to then getting told "ah your job is so easy anyways" or "look now you're slowly catching up to me", then you need to ask yourself - why am I letting myself be put down like this?
Remember, you are incredible and deserve someone who equally believes and demonstrates that this is true. If you're not getting that from your partner then, why bother?