Former X Factor judge Tulisa has revealed that she suffered from numerous panic attacks and dark days after she was arrested for “being concerned in the supply of class A drugs.”
The singer revealed that at one stage, she had tried to take her own life. “I had little breakdowns and depression that would last for three days,” she revealed to Grazia.
“I also started suffering from panic attacks. I used to get them when I was really young, but they came back... I’d be out having a drink and then I wouldn’t be able to breathe, would freak out and I’d feel like my heart was going to stop.
“I didn’t think I could hack being torn apart in court. That night was horrific. I don’t know where my head was. I’d already gone through six months of it and I was told I’d have to wait another six months for the trial where I could be sent to prison for eight months.”
The star revealed that things had got so bad that she tried to take her own life.“It just hit me that night and I put myself in a stupid headspace and luckily Gareth (her friend) found me… I’d taken a load of pills and Gareth rang the ambulance. It was, thank God, a failed attempt.”
She added that the incident had given her the strength to go on, “The next day I woke up and said to Gareth, ‘Book me a studio session now’.”
“It has been the worst year of my life…You either fall or you fight – and I chose to fight. I’m ready for anything now.”
The case against Tulisa was thrown out of court after it was reportedly revealed that a witness had apparently lied during a pre-trial statement. The 26-year-old is due to release her new single Living Without You on 7th December.
