Pippa O'Connor shares heartbreak over pregnancy loss
God love her.
Pippa O'Connor has opened up about the heartbreak she endured after suffering a miscarriage at 10 weeks.
Saying that the experience "knocked me for six", she spoke about the hardship during Georgie Crawford's The Good Glow podcast.
Pippa said: "I was 10 weeks, and I suppose it absolutely knocked me for six. I had never been through anything like that before.
"The first two times I had gotten pregnant happened easily, and then after Louis, it didn't happen. It didn’t happen for five years. Both Brian and I thought, 'Jesus, that’s that. That’s absolutely fine, we’re unbelievably happy to have our two boys’.
"And I genuinely felt that, I am very much like, don’t be always wanting more. I was content with our two little boys, but part of me was always like I’d want a third. It was just in my head."
The mum of three then recalled going into the hospital for a scan only to discover there was no heartbeat.
"It was like nine o'clock in the morning, I was all dressed up because I was on the way to Kildare Village", she said. "Brian was waiting for me in the car and I said 'Oh I’ll be really quick and out in like ten minutes’.
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"The minute she put the thing on, I just knew by her – she had this look about her and was just silent. And she told me 'I’ll be back in just a minute’ and I thought ‘Jesus Christ, don’t say this to me’.
"Then she brought the doctor in and she just said ‘Pippa, I’m really sorry, there’s no heartbeat’.
"Like – I was just so floored. My initial reaction was ‘Okay, that’s fine’ and I was literally putting my coat on to go to the door and she was calling me back.
"My initial reaction was 'Of course this is going to happen, you have two healthy kids. You can't always have it plane sailing’.
"I was embarrassed, I felt like I was wasting her time and couldn’t wait to get out of there. I thought ‘Don’t be such a stupid b*tch’. I was almost punishing myself straight away."
Pippa first spoke about her miscarriage last year when she announced she was expecting her third child with husband Brian Ormond and they welcomed their son Billy in October. They also share sons Ollie and Louis, as well as being step mum to Brian's daughter Chloe.